my conditions 4/30/09

Well this time things are rough, I fell numerous times. One where I went to turn, my other foot locked and I fell on my side on the ground landed on one of tools, I got a nice tattoo from it, very painful. Equal Librium is off, bending and leaning over, turns into a unexpected free fall. I was taking a shower, for the most part I'm sitting down in a shower chair, went to get up and turn, fell out of shower, I got lucky no bruises. My mornings are getting hard..taking longer to eat, barely able to pick up a cup of coffee. Using fork, spoon are becoming barbaric. Getting cramps more often, nerves are pulsating very much now. Talking is getting worst, labored, lower softer voice. Pain in back of neck increasing when moving head certain ways, raising arms, reaching out. My writing is very sloppy, signature is difficult to sign. thank God for medicine, getting good night sleep. Using bed rail more often to lift up. Opening doors, pull on it, hand slips of, closing door with body, no power in arms to shut it. In the car, hard to seat belt, using feet to open car door. Starting feel more in the spot light with people eyeing my walk and dropping things. Funny when people hear me talk, they think I'm drunk, I give them a wink and a smile.
Well that's it for now, check back for updates. PS, I rewrote "What does feel like to die", I went off track, carried off in the wrong direction, check it out now, seems more of what I intended. Also be watching for my new poem coming in a day or two....Hope it touches your heart....