my conditions 6/12/09

Well I'd like to say nothing has changed, but the deterioration is still progressing...
My hands are getting bulk of it, along with my shoulders, arms and the legs.
Before I start, I'd like to say goodbye to one of my doctors, Dr. Mosher, she leaving on her next assigment. I'll miss her and my prayers go with her for blessings, wisdom and protection in her days ahead, her comfort and kindness will never be forgotten....
My hands; when I look down and see muscles being eaten away, it's a reminder of what's to come...
My shoulders; It's sad, I had good form, never really big shoulders, but I had good detail and strong. Now the notice is the pain and the ever tiring efforts to reach and raise up. My youngest daughter grabed my hand to lead me in a walk, it felt like my arm was ripping out of my
shoulder.
My arms; I never had a problem finding my triceps, my fore arms reflected my strength. The detail/form is that of a cripling appearance.
My legs; It's like a tug of war to walk a straight line. Trying to orcastrate speed, balance are becoming a auto pilot where the need for assistance is now more evident.
My motor chair be ready in a week or so, they're measuring for the ramps.
My wife has been a true angel, she helps me dress, helps me eat, She has been very strong, but I'm worrying if she being too over whelmed by not just me.
The doctors are saying the operation for the feeding tube in my stomach is now needed, they're setting it up in a week or so. (I'm not going to like having two belly buttons...)
I've been feeling more weaker each day, I've been wanting to go to the prayer meetings, but can't find the will t0 do so. My speech and my voice are fading, I couldn't recites the responses in church, I had to borrow the man next to me his voice, I was lip syncing. Well that's it for now I'm getting tired, I'll try to update periodically, pleasae be patient and come back.