My conditions 08/31/09

I seem to be holding out, trying to stay focus through this trying time in my life. I'm doing my best not to complain, knowing its always easy to thank god when things are at their best, easy to smile and sing. Now its my time to be tested with all that I believe, to show God I 'm worthy and greatfull even in bad times. Trying to find good in everything that is, smiling when you know deep down you want to cry and scream. I'm keeping my eyes on what I can still do, not on what I can't. Keeping my faith in God, that no matter how turns out, and that it is part of a bigger plan. I keep saying God your will be done not mine, never giving up hope that this can all change, but standing brave in the mist of adversity. My next update will be September 11, my birthday................