my conditions 09/11/09

Hi everyone. It's been a very tough month of September. I really thought that my sickness was slowing down, but I was wrong. I really tried to type my diary, but my hands would not allow me to. Right now, I can only lift my arms 2-4 inches off the table and my fingers are almost totally frozen up. Right now I have my step-daughter typing for me, because I really tried to, but I couldn't anymore. As for my conditions they are as follows: my breathing is becoming difficult, because the flem is building up a lot in my throat. My ability to speak is also been affected. Just recently pulsating in my legs have increased and my ability to stand and walk are diminishing greatly. The doctors and my therapist have been great in helping and comforting me. I try to stay positive and upbeat, but the pain sometimes has been unbearable. My pain medicine has been increased to a point where I can tolerate it. For a while my weight was an issue so they increased my water intake which now wakes me up every night to go to the bathroom, I never thought I can pee that much. The ramp was put in recently which allowed me to move my wheelchair upstairs. Next week I will be receiving a breathing machine and a coughing machine, hopefully that will make things easier.