.my conditions as of 11/29/10

it is a beautiful sunny day. I am feeling fine, considering all. i'll be focusing on finishing story of the devil and praying with your heart. I write how I pray every day and I pray for every one I've ever known and that includes you and your family.

my condition as of 11/27/10

well thank God it was a very nice thanks giving. All went well, me I couldn't eat or drink anything. But my prayer was answered, I was at home with my family and not in the hospital, thank God...

my condition as of 11/22/10

just when you think you have enough to handle,I end up in the hospital with kidney stones. Anyway you take as it comes, sooner or later it all works out. Even though I can not eat or drink for Thanksgiving I am out of the hospital and home with my family

my condition 11/04/10

At this point I like to go back in reflection before this all happened. Lord knows I
I had my share of up and downs. Living my life best I can, having made some

my condition as of 11/02/10

Week after week I know there is still hope I can still be healed, but there still is question is it God's will and or is my death part of a bigger plan

.my conditions as of 10/25/10

As things are getting very hard, I learn to adapt and take it as it comes. My diaries are shorter and shorter, I entering a period of reflections past, present and the future. All the emotions prayers pleading with God to heal me. Knowing I'm in the final stage of this disease, now I seem to be begging for death without delay....

my condition as of 09/22/2010

I think its time to end the diary it getting to hard my eyes are getting sore.

my condition as of 09/16/2010

laying in my bed looking out the window and I see leaves falling, you know what that means.  somethings are in place to happen with or without you . Everyday you wake up and be part of society and moan and complain about the day or   I 'll  finish later I 'm getting tired

my condition as of 09/12/2010

 I'.m laying here at home, seems like groundhog day.  Tomorrow will be the same as before.  Empty dreams,..no goals to set, Sitting back for hours watching television, can't eat or drink anything. God did give me a blessing  I can't  smell anything. But  it is painful, when my family's sitting at the table eating and I'm in the other room laying in a hospital bed.  Totally  motionless  feeling worthless.

my condition as of 08-26-2010

 seems to be a good day, warm and peaceful .  The last couple

my condition as of 08/15/10

Its been awhile since  I last wrote, a lot has happened which blocked all that I had to continue. Up to this point all my typing is done with my eyes. I'm now Parryized from my neck down. From what  I see and what I researched, I'm now at the final stage of this desease, in which I have six months or less to live.

ill finish tomorrow i'm tired