my condition as of 09/16/2010

laying in my bed looking out the window and I see leaves falling, you know what that means.  somethings are in place to happen with or without you . Everyday you wake up and be part of society and moan and complain about the day or   I 'll  finish later I 'm getting tired

my condition as of 09/12/2010

 I'.m laying here at home, seems like groundhog day.  Tomorrow will be the same as before.  Empty dreams,..no goals to set, Sitting back for hours watching television, can't eat or drink anything. God did give me a blessing  I can't  smell anything. But  it is painful, when my family's sitting at the table eating and I'm in the other room laying in a hospital bed.  Totally  motionless  feeling worthless.