Sunday, September 12, 2010

my condition as of 09/12/2010

                 I'.m laying here at home, seems like groundhog day.  Tomorrow will be the same as before.  Empty dreams,..no goals to set, Sitting back for hours watching television, can't eat or drink anything. God did give me a blessing  I can't  smell anything. But  it is painful, when my family's sitting at the table eating and I'm in the other room laying in a hospital bed.  Totally  motionless  feeling worthless.

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      1. You're a proud and amazing dad. Don't feel worthless because you mean everything to us <3

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      2. Makes you wonder why God can allow your body to be perfectly still but keep your mind intact. When I am at my worst with my anxiety disorder, I have to set small silly goals to get me going again. You can still set goals. Maybe pray for a certain amount of people a day, wouldn't that piss off satan? lol Memorize some poetry just to see if you can, anything to keep your mind occupied might help even just the slightest bit? I love you so much and care deeply for you cousin!

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      3. also you should make a favorites page and put up some of your favorite songs, books, movies, etc. :)

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      4. I appreciate all your comments, I'm writing a couple of stories one about learning to pray and the way I pray. Another, The truth about the devil....I

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      5. Don't waste any of your time on the devil...he doesn't deserve it ;)Don't let him steal any more time from you.

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